Lyrical Musings an emotional journey via train of thought

I wanna tell you to save the drama for mama
but I close my mouth cause I know you ain’t gonna
it’s no surprise we’re come to this place again,
you’ve always thrived on misery my friend

the only thing still shocking is that I try
to tell you the truth when you’d rather I just lie
but we both know that i can’t do that, I just don’t have it in me
so don’t you think it’s time, someone puts us out our misery?

Maybe I won’t even say good bye
Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

You’ve walked over me so many times, it’s like I’m stuck to the floor
I don’t know if I can walk again or even get up anymore
as much as I try, I can’t rest all the blame on you
I lay here in the first place, what did i think you’d do?
But our game has lost its charm, it’s no longer any fun
Time to close up the playing board, because I am good and done

Maybe I won’t even say good bye
Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

I know I have no other choice, though you won’t understand
but if I stay here any longer, both of us are damned
You’ll think it’s so easy, the way I’m letting go
The truth of it is different, but that’s the face I show

Maybe you won’t even shed a tear
Maybe you’re happy that we’re here
Maybe you’ve just pushed me away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

and you don’t know

(you don’t know, you don’t know)

how could i expect you to?

it doesn’t show

(doesn’t show, doesn’t show)

this love i have for you

I know I should get out

(i should get out, can i get out?)

i can’t see a single way

that this works out

(this works out, this works out)

but i fight the urge to stay

do you feel the things i feel?

(things i feel, things i feel)

am i just making it up as i go along?

tell me are these feelings real?

(feelings real, feelings real)

maybe everything’s so wrong

still i can’t help but write it down

(write it down, write it down)

to see these lyrics free

even if it burns me down

(burns me down, burns me down)

and you’re the end of me

can i keep going on?

(keep going on, keep going on)

Is there something for me in the end?

Or is this just a silly song

(a silly song, a silly song)

That you’ll never hear my friend

and don’t you know

(oh you know, oh you know)

all the things I say I feel

(things I feel, things I feel)

there’s too many things to show,

but I can feel that they are real

you’re like a wind storm blowing me down

you’re going to bowl me over

and whenever you come around

I can’t seem to be sober

caught up in your way

thinking about it every day

hanging on every word you say

I can never get away

i look on ahead and i know

this thing we have will never last

but right now I cannot let go

I’m just living in our future’s past

caught up in your way

thinking about it every day

hanging on every word you say

I can never get away

you could never give me forever

even though I’d like to let you try

we’ll never end up together

you’ll have to be the one to say goodbye

caught up in your way

thinking about it every day

hanging on every word you say

I can never get away

and it haunts me each and every day

it doesn’t matter the words you say

eventually you”ll just go away

we both know that’s your way

Others have turned away when you needed them most
They left you alone and weak in the dirt
No crying shoulder around, no one to play host
How’s a man supposed to deal with his hurt?
Don’t see in me someone else’s ghost
We can’t be a place where your doubts lurk

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of love and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t been there before
I know what it’s like wanting to flee
I’ve fought every urge to run through that door
Just like others have done to me
What can you do when they refuse you support?
But don’t you think for a second it’ll set you free

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of grace and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

I can’t pretend to take it all away
All the pain that they’ve given to you
We both know there’s nothing that I can say
To make you forget what you’ve had to do
My only hope is to have enough sway
For you to see in me a heart that is true

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of hope and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

My time, my affection
Loyalty and every confession
My dreams and my touch
Every single thought of love
That’s what you’ll get from me

Every single piece that is me
That’s what you’ll get from me

You won’t find me in a smokey lounge singing the blues
and the bright lights won’t spell out my name
I really doubt I’ll ever change the world
but I’m going to love you just the same

Some people won’t let anything get in their way
they have have the biggest dreams
and they won’t stop for anything
but I just want you at the end of the day

I’m going to try hard as I can
it won’t be easy or perfect
there’ll be stormy days ahead
but I’m not afraid of making that stand

Some may call it a little bit too easy
I won’t try to make them understand
Or tell them exactly what’s on my mind
as long as you agree with me

Maybe I’m getting back to a simpler way of life
but I want what I want what I want
and what I want’s what I want’s what I want
I don’t have anything to decide

As long as that hand you’re holding is mine
I know we’ll be just fine
and if you keep coming to me to confide
I’ll stay right by your side

They call me crazy for giving you a chance
and I don’t know that they’re wrong
but I’m going to give it my all anyway
so I can know the ending to this song

No, you won’t find me in Hollywood
I couldn’t care less if I ever make it big
Cause I’m living life on my own terms
If I have you, I’ll call it good

Together, we can make the life that I know I need
falling asleep in your arms to wake up by your side
it’s too soon to say forever, so I’ll say this instead
All that I need is us as long as I breathe

remember that time
when i was almost yours
and you were almost mine
and everything fell almost perfectly in line

think about that day
when you held me in your arms
and made the world go away
and kept me safe from harm

don’t forget about the night
when we fell asleep together
and nothing’s ever felt so right
or so close to forever

promise you’ll never let go
of the smiles we shared
and the secrets i let you know
and the way we cared

just think about it
when you’ve got a minute
our perfect fit
that will always be infinite

another tear rolls slowly down
marking its way at it goes
and i am sure to drown

i know it’s such a cliche
but i can’t help but think
everything looks bleak and grey

but the clouds are rolling in
and the world’s a little less bright
my vision becomes so dim

and i don’t understand why
when i’ve been through this all before
there are any tears left to cry

you don’t seem to know
how my heart is breaking
and you won’t let show
the toll this is all taking

the same old song and dance
you pull, i push, we break
just wanting a second chance
to erase our old mistakes

it happens time and again
the same old broken heart
i just don’t understand

I will mark and I will claim you
Maul and maim you
Take and tame you
I will have and I will hold you
Understand and know you
Love and control you
I will collar and I will lead you
Bite and bleed you
Cherish and need you
You will push and you will pull me
Arouse and fill me
Fulfill and complete me
And I will keep you
And you will keep me
we will feel and we will be
Entangled, star crossed, invincible
You and me

I won’t tell you that you’re breaking my heart
It doesn’t matter, it will break anyway
And I won’t stand here waiting
because I can’t watch you walk away
But I’ll still feel every ounce of pain
And choke back everything I could say

Even if it hurts with every breath
Every heart beat a little death
Just went I think I won’t make it through
I do.

Every time I can’t remember
when I’m overcoming with darkened thoughts
Whenever I’m sure the end is near
And the pain is never worth the cost
Something inside grows in strength
Suddenly, I don’t feel so lost

Even when I feel this weak
Broken and unable to speak
Never finding that which I seek
I do.

I won’t always feel so lost
Eventually, I’ll find a way
I’ll find a respite from the pain
and finally know the right words to say
I’ll look back tomorrow and know my strength
Even though I don’t feel it today

I do know heartbreak, suffering and lost
I’ve sacrificed and paid the cost
but it’s not by chance I’ve made it through
I keep on going–it’s what I do.

You can’t have it all they’ll say to you
You can’t have your cake and eat it too
And you’ll spend your whole life wishing it weren’t true

You have to take a chance if you want success
You can’t sit around and hope for the best
If only your life demanded for less

The easy thing is never right
If you love it, you have to fight
An uphill battle, such is your plight

If it’s love, then you’ll just know
I’d you love it, you have to let it go
But what if you’re left with nothing to show?

They sum up existence in pretty little lines
some to scare you and some to say “everything will be just fine”

They know it all, they’ve been there before
And they’re not afraid to tell you some more
But no matter the advice anyone will give
Your life, your mistakes are only yours to live

Sooner or later, there will come a day
When you find yourself using that cliche
You’ll pass on your wisdom to a younger heart
And hope this life won’t tear him apart

You’ll sum up existence in pretty little lines
Some to give hope and some to challenge his mind
All along, never realizing you’d find
These cliches come true, somewhere in time