Lyrical Musings an emotional journey via train of thought

The Short and Long of It

October 18th, 2013

You spin me ’round, pull me down
make me feel like my feet don’t touch the ground

you give me love, lift me up
like the answer to my prayer’s in your touch

I pretend it’s fine, one day at a time
but I want to make you all mine

Should move to the door, stuck on  the floor
can’t you tell that I want more, more, more?

and I don’t know, does it show
that I fall apart every time you go?

You don’t see how, you’ve got me now
If I could only say the words out loud

Easy to see, how we could be
the best part of you and the best of me

Want to show you, how it’s true
every little thing that I’d do for you

You know my heart, from the start
Nothing could ever tear us apart

We can go home, all our own
a place where we’ll never be alone

I don’t know why, I can’t lie
We both know it doesn’t pay to say “good bye”

Guess I’ll keep on, writing this song
Pretending that it will never go wrong



October 10th, 2013

She never quite felt safe. No, that wasn’t the word for it. She just always felt on. She was always analyzing the situations even as she was in the middle of them. Being around people, no matter how fun or gratifying, was always a drain on her. Like a true introvert, she needed time alone to recharge. It was during that charge that she could finally relax, let her hair down. She didn’t care how she looked after a long day or how ungraceful her movements were as she danced alone in her home.

But eventually she’d return to the world. She couldn’t be alone forever (she didn’t want to be alone, either). She’d return to the people that she called friends, to her family, to the people that she loved and who loved her, and they’d slowly drain her away. No, it was never quite safe in the real world.

It felt safe with him, though. It felt safe in his arms. She had no doubt that he accepted her unconditionally, that no matter how worn her makeup, how tired her voice or how messy her hair, that would be okay by him. It would be better than okay, she was sure. And she needed that.

She needed that in ways she hadn’t understood for years. She hadn’t felt that way with her previous partners, not even the one to whom she sworn to love until the day she died. She hadn’t felt so wholly comfortable, so utterly free. She had never quite felt so complete as when she was in his arms. The realization that the person who had been there all along was the key to a locked door she hadn’t even seen while she passed it a hundred, thousand, million times before.

And she didn’t think that he had any idea that he was the only key that fit, that he opened a door to freedom. He had no idea that that by holding her tight he was releasing her of all her worries and fears. He was clueless, perhaps, like all men are. Maybe that’s what made it all work in the end. She wasn’t quite sure.

All she knew is that she felt safe with him.

Better This Way

October 1st, 2013

I wanna tell you to save the drama for mama
but I close my mouth cause I know you ain’t gonna
it’s no surprise we’re come to this place again,
you’ve always thrived on misery my friend

the only thing still shocking is that I try
to tell you the truth when you’d rather I just lie
but we both know that i can’t do that, I just don’t have it in me
so don’t you think it’s time, someone puts us out our misery?

Maybe I won’t even say good bye
Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

You’ve walked over me so many times, it’s like I’m stuck to the floor
I don’t know if I can walk again or even get up anymore
as much as I try, I can’t rest all the blame on you
I lay here in the first place, what did i think you’d do?
But our game has lost its charm, it’s no longer any fun
Time to close up the playing board, because I am good and done

Maybe I won’t even say good bye
Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

I know I have no other choice, though you won’t understand
but if I stay here any longer, both of us are damned
You’ll think it’s so easy, the way I’m letting go
The truth of it is different, but that’s the face I show

Maybe you won’t even shed a tear
Maybe you’re happy that we’re here
Maybe you’ve just pushed me away
Cause maybe it’s better that way

Maybe you shouldn’t see me cry
Maybe I’ll just walk away
Cause maybe it’s better that way