Lyrical Musings an emotional journey via train of thought

Others have turned away when you needed them most
They left you alone and weak in the dirt
No crying shoulder around, no one to play host
How’s a man supposed to deal with his hurt?
Don’t see in me someone else’s ghost
We can’t be a place where your doubts lurk

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of love and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t been there before
I know what it’s like wanting to flee
I’ve fought every urge to run through that door
Just like others have done to me
What can you do when they refuse you support?
But don’t you think for a second it’ll set you free

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of grace and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

I can’t pretend to take it all away
All the pain that they’ve given to you
We both know there’s nothing that I can say
To make you forget what you’ve had to do
My only hope is to have enough sway
For you to see in me a heart that is true

Because I will always be
Right here waiting for you
Heart full of hope and arms opened wide
That’s what you’ll get from me

My time, my affection
Loyalty and every confession
My dreams and my touch
Every single thought of love
That’s what you’ll get from me

Every single piece that is me
That’s what you’ll get from me

You won’t find me in a smokey lounge singing the blues
and the bright lights won’t spell out my name
I really doubt I’ll ever change the world
but I’m going to love you just the same

Some people won’t let anything get in their way
they have have the biggest dreams
and they won’t stop for anything
but I just want you at the end of the day

I’m going to try hard as I can
it won’t be easy or perfect
there’ll be stormy days ahead
but I’m not afraid of making that stand

Some may call it a little bit too easy
I won’t try to make them understand
Or tell them exactly what’s on my mind
as long as you agree with me

Maybe I’m getting back to a simpler way of life
but I want what I want what I want
and what I want’s what I want’s what I want
I don’t have anything to decide

As long as that hand you’re holding is mine
I know we’ll be just fine
and if you keep coming to me to confide
I’ll stay right by your side

They call me crazy for giving you a chance
and I don’t know that they’re wrong
but I’m going to give it my all anyway
so I can know the ending to this song

No, you won’t find me in Hollywood
I couldn’t care less if I ever make it big
Cause I’m living life on my own terms
If I have you, I’ll call it good

Together, we can make the life that I know I need
falling asleep in your arms to wake up by your side
it’s too soon to say forever, so I’ll say this instead
All that I need is us as long as I breathe

remember that time
when i was almost yours
and you were almost mine
and everything fell almost perfectly in line

think about that day
when you held me in your arms
and made the world go away
and kept me safe from harm

don’t forget about the night
when we fell asleep together
and nothing’s ever felt so right
or so close to forever

promise you’ll never let go
of the smiles we shared
and the secrets i let you know
and the way we cared

just think about it
when you’ve got a minute
our perfect fit
that will always be infinite

another tear rolls slowly down
marking its way at it goes
and i am sure to drown

i know it’s such a cliche
but i can’t help but think
everything looks bleak and grey

but the clouds are rolling in
and the world’s a little less bright
my vision becomes so dim

and i don’t understand why
when i’ve been through this all before
there are any tears left to cry

you don’t seem to know
how my heart is breaking
and you won’t let show
the toll this is all taking

the same old song and dance
you pull, i push, we break
just wanting a second chance
to erase our old mistakes

it happens time and again
the same old broken heart
i just don’t understand

I will mark and I will claim you
Maul and maim you
Take and tame you
I will have and I will hold you
Understand and know you
Love and control you
I will collar and I will lead you
Bite and bleed you
Cherish and need you
You will push and you will pull me
Arouse and fill me
Fulfill and complete me
And I will keep you
And you will keep me
we will feel and we will be
Entangled, star crossed, invincible
You and me

I won’t tell you that you’re breaking my heart
It doesn’t matter, it will break anyway
And I won’t stand here waiting
because I can’t watch you walk away
But I’ll still feel every ounce of pain
And choke back everything I could say

Even if it hurts with every breath
Every heart beat a little death
Just went I think I won’t make it through
I do.

Every time I can’t remember
when I’m overcoming with darkened thoughts
Whenever I’m sure the end is near
And the pain is never worth the cost
Something inside grows in strength
Suddenly, I don’t feel so lost

Even when I feel this weak
Broken and unable to speak
Never finding that which I seek
I do.

I won’t always feel so lost
Eventually, I’ll find a way
I’ll find a respite from the pain
and finally know the right words to say
I’ll look back tomorrow and know my strength
Even though I don’t feel it today

I do know heartbreak, suffering and lost
I’ve sacrificed and paid the cost
but it’s not by chance I’ve made it through
I keep on going–it’s what I do.

It’s that feeling, the drop in the pit of your stomach like you’re on a roller coaster, but this is no ride. It’s more like slamming on the breaks after racing down a steep hill, hoping that you’ll stop in time before you hit that deer–and that the guy behind you will stop in time before hitting you. It’s the catch in your throat because you know you want to cry, but you can’t. You just can’t. You can’t do anything because you’re not supposed to feel like this. Life wasn’t supposed to feel like this, but it does.

And you wonder how you got to this point. How did any of us get here? Why didn’t anyone mention that it was going to be like this?

“And, oh, by the way, nothing about being an adult makes sense. The real world is completely fucked up. There’s nothing you can do about it. It doesn’t get better or easier.”

But here you are in the really, really real world, and it really, really sucks. You’ve got that sinking feeling because the worst possible thing that can be happening right now is happened, has happened, will happened. It’s like someone punched you in the gut and the pain won’t go away. It.just.won’t.stop.

How do they expect you to function with any semblance of a human being when it feels like this every.God.damned.day? How are you supposed to reach your potential and make a difference? Find happiness? Start a family? Change the world?

Just who are you to do any of that? What did you do to deserve this real world stuff in the first place?

Nothing. It’s never anything. Just nothing.

You can’t have it all they’ll say to you
You can’t have your cake and eat it too
And you’ll spend your whole life wishing it weren’t true

You have to take a chance if you want success
You can’t sit around and hope for the best
If only your life demanded for less

The easy thing is never right
If you love it, you have to fight
An uphill battle, such is your plight

If it’s love, then you’ll just know
I’d you love it, you have to let it go
But what if you’re left with nothing to show?

They sum up existence in pretty little lines
some to scare you and some to say “everything will be just fine”

They know it all, they’ve been there before
And they’re not afraid to tell you some more
But no matter the advice anyone will give
Your life, your mistakes are only yours to live

Sooner or later, there will come a day
When you find yourself using that cliche
You’ll pass on your wisdom to a younger heart
And hope this life won’t tear him apart

You’ll sum up existence in pretty little lines
Some to give hope and some to challenge his mind
All along, never realizing you’d find
These cliches come true, somewhere in time

My heart
my heart feels
my heart feels heavy
but maybe that’s nothing new

My head
my head thinks
my head thinks this could be a bad idea
but then I get another look at you

My arms
my arms reach
my arms reach out to hold you
and I can’t believe you’re there

My eyes
my eyes see
my eyes see possibility in you
but I wonder if you even care

My lips
my lips move
my lips move but no sounds come out
because I don’t have the nerve to let you know

My mind
my mind races
my mind races with thought of us
but how can I make it be so?

Your voice
your voice speaks
your voice speaks right to my soul
and I’m about to lose control

My heart
my heart feels
my heart feels things I cannot say
but words would just get in the way — anyway

You know how I feel
this ain’t no break it deal
but a make it deal
you say it’s too late to feel
anything else

I know it’s not easy
I know that I’m to blame
what I’m asking for
is a lot of hard work
and we may never be the same
Still

What I’ve said to you
is nothing but true
we can make it through
why not give it a shot
if there’s nothing left to lose?

I know it’s not easy
I know that I’m to blame
what I’m asking for
is a lot of hard work
and we may never be the same
Still

When it comes to love
why are we giving up
when you’d called me the one
how could we ever be done
so easily?

I know it’s not easy
I know that I’m to blame
what I’m asking for
is a lot of hard work
and we may never be the same
Still

the clock’s ticking down
while you’re not around
I can’t pretend
that I even understand

I know you don’t know how
or even where to begin
what I’m asking for
is a long road ahead
but worth it in the end