Sometimes
Sometimes
gentle waves of disdain
falling over my face
hiding my eyes
from the light
gliding me to my corner of the world
feeding off my insecurities
playing off my fear
so this is the end
it’s so different
from how i had it imagined
i tried to be prepared
for the one final moment
but it proved to be
my moment of weakness
the ground fell out
from beneath me
and the air stopped
moving around me
as i stood
listening to the silence
emptiness and nothing
tying their ropes
around my wrists
fresh cuts
scars of life
wounds of death
and i knew
that sometimes
you can’t tell
how it’s going to be
and sometimes trying
isn’t enough
but everything seemed
irrelevant
and it wasn’t sometimes
it wasn’t anything