Listless
Listless
ai am going to grow up to be a fuck up
let me show you how’ll i’ll start
i will let you all tear at my insides
until there is nothing left to expose
my eyes emptied of tears
empty of life
i know that’s how you like it
>i know it’s how you get off<
and i will not complain
because then i’ll be mature
i’ll keep it all on the inside
twisting like vines
in and around my heart
thorns taking hold of the flesh
slicing me inside out
and i won’t cry out
nor ask for help
because i know you want me to be strong
i shall play my suicide soundtrack on repeat
long after my breaths are no longer showing
in the bitter night air
long after the city has turned off its lights
and the last of the whores have found their john
and sometime in the waking moments
as the new dawn spreads over the dew covered world
we will all stand in awe
our eyes straining to see the end of the horizon
because there’s no reason anymore
and that’s all we need