Lyrical Musings an emotional journey via train of thought

we were entwined by layers of silk/ i was to afraid to reach out and touch you/ your porcelain skin shining like the halo around the sky those bitter cold winter nights/your breath was not enough of you for me/i needed more – to make you mine/i needed you to be my sweet release/behind closed doors i wanted to make you whole again/your moans echoing off of the walls and into my ears/a pleasure i can never give to you/i would drink of your blood if it pleased you i do so/to feel your essence in me, part of me/if only you were part of me/you’re so much more than the rest – shining so divine/my lips parched aching whispering your name/falling off of my tongue like some sweet prayer/and all i can think of is how sad your eyes are tonight/i could not hold you long enough/nor take away the pain to make you whole once more/but if else prove futile i shall break your fall

you think you’re so fucking special
i bet you’re just waiting for me to agree
what are you trying to prove?
to you? to me?
you’re obviously blind to the message i’m trying to get across
but i guess that’s all okay ’cause it isn’t my loss
i’m not the one playing games like you say
but if this is how it’ll be then i guess i will play
your words, they don’t burn me that deep
don’t think i am fooled by your naivete
don’t come crawling back on your hands and your knees
ive asked you once, can’t you just let me be?

gah! i’m so pissed! i can’t write for shit anymore! maybe i never could there’s no emotion no movement there’s nothing i wish i could write like sigi i wish i wish everything is dead there’s nothing anymore