Envy
Envy
i see the way you look at me
jealousy reflected in your eyes
i feel the way you hate me
you’re plotting my demise
i know that you still love me
i hear it in your cries
but yet you cannot be me
and you cannot cage me
you’ll never be truly happy
until you know you own me
because i’m such a threat
to your precious life
and you might lose to me
but you haven’t even tried
well honey i know the feeling
and i know i never liked it
but sometimes things are like that
and it’s something you gotta deal with
i see the way you look at him
the longing in your eyes
i see the way you reel him in
i hear the bitterness in your lies
i wonder sometimes if this fight
is one i’m really fighting
or if maybe it’s all in your mind
but i can’t take time
to play child’s games
i’m busy being your idol
your enemy
your lover
but sometimes i wonder
if i’m real at all
because i know what it’s like to be me
and i know how it feels to hate me
i know what it’s like to own me
and it’s not something i’ve been proud of
i know all the feelings you’re trying hard to fight
i look at you and i
and know this can’t be right
so before you try to be me
before you try to cage me
before you make love to me
there’s a few things i’d like to say
i can’t take time
to play child’s games
i’m busy being your idol
your enemy
your lover
but sometimes i wonder
if i’m real at all